FIRST LOVE DOES DIE
"....it's our anniversary today! o6 na sa pilipinas!! WAAAA!! its been a tough year for the both of us. we've been through lots of trials. more than you can imagine. we almost gave up and lost. just when we thought theres no more chance.. here we are, drawn closer again by God. i thank dane for playing a big role in my foolish teenage life. he has changed me a lot and still continues to affect me. he made me weak and strong. he made me bad and nice. he has this power to maim me and build me. and i salute him for that. my bestfriend, my soulmate...
...i love him so much.ü..."
almost two years ago i met the guy who, little did i know, would drastically change my life. the first half of the story is here: wabs story o6 ..the happy part, the good part, the "LOVE" story. [warning: my narrating style was kinda draggy though, i only had time during no-homework-times] i stopped updating that website months ago due to various reasons, but now im back to finish the story that i've started to share.
the friendship has ended, the love has turned into hate. now here's the second half of my life's most noteworthy escapade.. starring a person whom i keep in mind and heart as "...a picture of an extraordinary young man to me, the one who brought life's beautiful and painful memories..."
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so aiun nga, nagbreak kmi nung last week of july.. pero nung august 6, 2006 tumawag si dane sa bahay nmin para batiin prin ako ng happy monthsary kahit papano. naappreciate ko tlaga un ng sobra.. sweet prin kming dalawa.. then bigla ko xang tinawag na "wabs.." natahimik xa bigla for a moment, then sabi nia.. "sana meaning nun, akin ka na ulit.." sabi ko: "hmm.. oo, pero hindi na kta pinagbabawal na makipagusap, mkipgtxt, or chat sa ibang babae.. okay na sakn un.. chka hindi nrin ako magdedemand ng message, or blog from you every week."
nagtaka bigla si dane, it isnt me at all. xempre narealize ko rin na balang araw magbebreak at magbebreak dn kmi ng tuluyan. reality na toh, hindi na fantasy. teenagers plang kmi and there's not that much possibility na magkakahintayan nga kmi hanggang pagtanda. but i was pretty sure that time na i can still keep him... as a bestfriend. sabi ni dane, "weh? wabs? bat gnun.." napamahal na siguro xa sa possessive attitude ko, or nanibago lang tlaga. "hindi mo na bako mahal?" sabi nia.. sabi ko nmn mahal ko prin xa pero i just want to try something else other than pananakal nman.
as usual, nung paubos na ung calling card... "bye, i love you! happy monthsary! mwaah!"...
after that fone call nagblog si dane. sobrang saya nia sa blog nia. "wabs.. kinilig ako nung narinig ko sau ulit ung salitang 'wabs'.. promise ko tlaga hindi ko na sasayangin tong chance na binigay mo sakn.. blah blah!" sa loob loob ko.. "mahirap na umasa sa mga promises ngaung ganito ung lagay ng relationship nmin.. kami nanaman ulit.. magkasakitan pa keia kmi ulit? totoo bang kaya kong i-loosen up ung pagiging selosa at possessive ko? how much time keia tong itatagal ng long distance relationship na toh? ilang monthsaries pa? ganu katagal ko pa pwedeng sabihin na "dane, akin ka parin.."
doodled at 4:42 PM
doodled at 4:42 PM